Crescent Whirlwind

Currently trying to go with the flow but striking back to the same grounds again and again...really very much stranded with some people's behaviour and not able to figure out anything...just don't understand how can things in the personal life can not affect the professional for some people and if they are able to do that why can't I ?Why all small small things bother me so much and ruin my life?Till the time something is not sorted out why can't I even think on something else?And if people know this why in first place they behave like this? Relations are so much like marketing...there are expectations,there are promises under delivered,there are complaints,there is feedback,there is communication gap,then recovery.Half of the problems cause because of over expectations under delivered but how to define over expectations?If once upon a time all your needs were getting catered to and suddenly if they don't tar who is at fault?customer of service provider?Then wha...

I was afraid of my own shadow yesterday and today want only her company I was scared of the "human" residing in the person yesterday and willing to live beyond humanity today I was panic of a fall of a pyramid and today craving to be on the top of it I was horrified with the thunderstorm and wish to go shipping in the same ocean today I was distressed to see the setting Sun and feeling like going in a twilight walk today I was alone in the crowd yesterday and actually away from crowd today just the loneliness is forever to stay...

If assumed there is everything and if not there is nothing Just like the swinging pendulum between Yes and No Like the refracted ray somewhere blur and somewhere crystal clear Sometimes enchanting sometimes pseudo Sometimes appearing when you think its gone and sometimes disappearing in nowhere while you are still feeling it And then an emptiness, occupying right from within questioning your own self you are never really bothered about the answers cause their pace has no direction, like the existence of oxygen in vacuum what lies is just inner craving,the urge magnetically pulling you towards and not giving no time to think and then you just go by towards the centre of the magnetic field from nothing to something and from something to nothing If assumed there is everything and if not there is nothing...

Life is progressing in bits and pieces and productive life is clinging to negative infinity..the only mood saddhya is "mood nahie" phase to do whatever may be..since I am left with nothing else thinking and thinking like mad is the only thing up on the mind. And that's causing the problems. Why people want freshers while marrying and at least 2 years experience while offering offering a job? why people you thought knew you the best acting as if its not their fault? why the rain outside calming the sun scorched earth is not able to calm the storm within? why consistently I am denied anything and everything? why people don't behave and act and feel at least once the way you want them to? why these whys again and again have to occupy mind when I don't want them to... why I have always have to detach myself from something to avoid the consequences of something else? and why all these things are so painful yet have no option than to try.....