Crescent Whirlwind

Life has taken a bit set back now days...as in nothing productive is happening but the crescent whirlwinds are high.The emotional turmoil is driving me crazy to the walls.A small thing happend in my life and suddenly the circumstance around me  changed drastically.I am now a days forced to accept the philosophy which I never trusted earliar.As in I could never ever guess the practical relevance of it and now I am actually experiencing it.It is so weird when you are left with no other choice than to go by logical way.I denied the existence of some things and those only happening in my life in such a short span.Life is really playing Ringa-Ringa-Roses [:)]  I don't know how am I suppossed to react in this case,so I am just enjoying the very moment.And Yes I am happy ...

Sometimes the thoughts flow so easily and sometimes it is so hard to gather them together.They are like the stars dispersed in the sky and randomly floating through the mind....I could never really guess their significance and I just don't know why??Sometimes things become so erratic and I feel so burst out.It's so hard when you only don't know what's going on in your mind so far...I start feeling left out from anywhere and everywhere.Things which were supposed to be mine are not suddenly mine any more.Everyone is going away or is it simply I am walking away?

Today my own feelings playing Hide-And-Seek with me What I want is so different from what I wanted What I feel is so different from what I felt What I see is just not matching with what I want to see The urge is coming right from inside My own feelings keeping me aside I want something, which will take me for while I need the assurance to walk that extra mile The emotional turmoil is driving me crazy to the walls The hidden spaces are now moving away from the thoughts Somewhere something becomes crystal clear,I feel happy Suddenly something disappears,I feel scary I want to let go some things and wait for their arrival.... May be I never expected those things to stay forever This confessional dilemma is adding to my restlessness What I'm currently looking for is just peace for decades I don't want to go beyond expression of reality I'm just not bothered about the things and their feasibility My mirror image today is now a perfect stranger My gestures have also become a part...

I ceased feeling anything when I accepted the absence of you in my life ! Things are difficult to accept than they actually are ! And once I accept then what remains in my life? The philosophy beyond acceptance was never meant for me... Then by declining the reality what did I get? If the happiness of even from sunrise to sunset was never there in my life, then why at all I am born? If compramise is the only fact left then why not an animal's life? If the emotions only waging a war against emotions then what's the reason I am alive?

Why do some people walk in our life And walk out too as the days pass by? And then why dont they take away those memories too? Why dwell in our mind those memories? why those memories have to itch so hard,come what may... With the blowing breeze new people,new memories and again new pain If those people are never going to stay back in the life why at all do they walk in?? To destroy the little world?

I wish you could be the one I always craved for, I wish you could be that shine I alwyas asked for, I wish you could be the face I always waited for, I wish you could be the wish I always wished for, I wish you could be the world I want to live in, I wish you could be the colour I want my life in, I wish you could be that path I left, I wish you could be that feel I felt, I wish you could be the sky I always wanted, I wish you could be the dream I got enchanted... It can go on like anything so am leaving it incomplete...cause its still incomplete [;)]

Oneday some day I too will walk away With nothing in my hand and life just a decay, Leaving behind another mistery unvealed letting go all my dreams unfulfilled, life merely and measurably a paradox And mind terribly tired to find the way in the middle of the rocks Putting up just another mask over the living is not helping me anymore Sooner or later I want to get out of the crossroad Sometimes the alter me wants to stuggle for the living Somehow it wants to find the reason for being The other me inside does not let her do so The dripping life of mine can't get good though A totally confused soul is seeking for a breath A virtual regret is asking for help Suddenly I feel I have found something And even before accepting it,it becomes nothing I'm fade up of myself I'm fade up me Just whiling away the time and waiting to be "me"