Crescent Whirlwind

The darkness is seeping through the heart again Living becomes just another blaming game Expectations crossing the boundaries relentlessly Nightmares keep the track patiently... The world seems to be a huge question mark People around as usual turn their back And I find myself in the same mindset again Going round and round all over in sane The life has stopped searching for the meaning Existence has become the moral binding Fake is the world I want to live in Pseudo are the shadows of people, I believe in Negating is the only thing my mind is doing; Accepting is the thing it should be doing Thoughts run continuously and make it all worst The eyes never stop wiping and emotions just burst As usual, I find no way out People move away and I go nowhere Asking question 'why' is the routine without answer I live again in a paradoxical nightmare

The year has gone by. Time flew unknowingly...The day used to start at 5.30 am and end at around 1am.That's the only same thing around. Things have changed from WNS to Indian Magic Eye and college and yes,Purushottam too. Friends are new...Work is different...Working culture is different...Approach is different...Some friends got married, some are now even pregnant, some lost their jobs, some got promoted, some newly found love, some still searching for it, some got betrayed, some got hurt, some found new trust, some lives changed, some got reincarnated...and then where was I ,all those times?...I was a silent apprehender every time...and a silent observer sometimes....Some people left their remarks forever to remember, some silently walked away, some new entered with the promise to forever stay...I discovered the hidden/unknown self..realised many things...lend an hearing ear to some and asked for the same from some....people...people. People.....It’s always people who walk in you...

[Posting as per gogo's request ;-) its in marathi ] Ek Shaniwar,asach alshi ugwawa ani nantar ekdum rahatawar chalnarya gadgyala motari itki gati milavi itka vegvan diwas asel asa watla tari hota ka kaal? Ratri zoptana ek ashantata,sakali achanak parat vadalasarkhi yavi ani mihi ti sahajtene par karavi...parat don wawtali uthawyat..apratyaksharitya me gumphlya gelelya ani tyatunahi me sahajtene chalat jave ... Chalnarya botivar vegvan varyamadhe sheed lawaycha prayatna karawa me ani ti dolaymantahi samarasun anubhavavi me.. Santh panyat duchmalat chalnari bot achanak bhowra alyavar thodishi helkavi ani tarihi me ti atmavishwasane pudhe nyavi... Nantar akash datun yave,manat ek ashanka ani dhuwandhar kosalnarya jaldhara... saglach rikampan dhuvun kadhnarya,manatla,ajubajuachahi... Janu tyasathich tyani firun janma ghetla asava mazyatlya 'me' cha asnahi punha navyani janmale.. swachchha dhuvun nighalelya rastyavarun manasokta nhaleli me,hirvyakancha zadancha pananvarun padnar...

To the wandering soul within, For a last few weeks, I have observed some changes happening within and outside too. Some things you realize later on, I agree. Some new things enter into your life, I agree. Priorities change, of people, of work, I agree. But while the simultaneous happening is being taking place, how often you just get carried away? How often you really live that moment with the known "you”? Everything in life has a reason and not everything comes for a season. Everything in our life has some place and sometimes the places are things driven. You just have no right on them. Sometimes you find yourself guilty for many reasons, which sometimes are known and sometimes unknown. You get circumvented with the guilty feeling and try to run away from people who you think are suffering cause of you, you run away from your own self. Everything starts bothering you, the "why me?" feeling is up on your mind. Suddenly you feel everyone around is being so erratic. You hu...

Walking alongside the road a random thought strikes the mind and makes me think beyond crossroads…Just don’t know the reason of the mind drift but deliberately its happening. Life is not just a crossroad but there are many main roads, tunnels, underground roads, connecting flyovers, underwater gangways, unending highways, and some naughty pathways too. Now when I take a look back at my life, simply wonder how could I miss them all? Or is it that I just ignored them? Or may be knowingly denied their existence?  Every road is a learning experience .Just that your preconceptions make you think it’s a crossroad. Once you adopt the vision to get the zeal and touch and feel of the newer path, there are so many things lying downside and waiting just for you. Incidences may be very trivial but surely give you the feeling “Yes, this is what I was searching for” And you don’t have to go beyond any horizons in their search. It’s all within. Perhaps like a denied creature. I’m really amazed over l...

Life has taken a bit set back now days...as in nothing productive is happening but the crescent whirlwinds are high.The emotional turmoil is driving me crazy to the walls.A small thing happend in my life and suddenly the circumstance around me  changed drastically.I am now a days forced to accept the philosophy which I never trusted earliar.As in I could never ever guess the practical relevance of it and now I am actually experiencing it.It is so weird when you are left with no other choice than to go by logical way.I denied the existence of some things and those only happening in my life in such a short span.Life is really playing Ringa-Ringa-Roses [:)]  I don't know how am I suppossed to react in this case,so I am just enjoying the very moment.And Yes I am happy ...

Sometimes the thoughts flow so easily and sometimes it is so hard to gather them together.They are like the stars dispersed in the sky and randomly floating through the mind....I could never really guess their significance and I just don't know why??Sometimes things become so erratic and I feel so burst out.It's so hard when you only don't know what's going on in your mind so far...I start feeling left out from anywhere and everywhere.Things which were supposed to be mine are not suddenly mine any more.Everyone is going away or is it simply I am walking away?